diagnosis and direction
POSTED AT 10:08 AM

pasahero

i am falling in love with a vampire. or is it that i am seducing a vampire, in my dream?¹ the room is my office and i try to lift my skirt...² and well, the vampire is someone i don't know. he looks strangely like a werewolf-beast-monster instead.³

the scene changes and i stand at a dark crossroads⁴, my clothes tattered and thin. these roads are the roads of my childhood⁵--where jeepneys used to stop and load passengers going to kalentong. now, in my dream, my IDs are scattered everywhere in the middle of the crossroads.⁶ all my IDs--work ID, alumni ID, atm, BIR ID. i try to pick them up which is difficult to do since the tricycles and the jeepneys and the pedestrians are all honking, speeding,cursing around me. when i stop at a corner, clutching an ID, a huge waste truck almost swerved and killed me.⁷ imagine, dying in all that dirt. and in my dreams too.

1. hmm... vampires are well-known to be creatures of the night, sucking blood (and eventually, life) out from their victims by well, seducing them. be careful on choosing whom to become intimate with, friends, workmates, et al.

2. might be trying to seduce them to by letting them in my, uh, private life. of course, dreams are never literal. that said, no more XXX dreams would mean the same.

3. scary, huge, powerful, dark--stereotypical for people who have power-and-attention mongering. watch out for those.

4. time for changes. rather, i am about to choose the most important thing: #6

5. all my life has brought me here *bow bow*

6. my identity. my life. my personality. everything about me that i knew, know, and would know. i would choose what to keep, what to change, what to remove. but importantly, i am just plain confused, mixed up, scattered.

7. i might end up in near-death situations, picking up the pieces. might even end in the dirt, or worse, dead. at least, in the end of all these, i get to save one ID card.

 
Listening to: train-drops of jupiter
Feeling: thoughtful